well, tomoro is one of those most blessed days as well, not too many girls get to ever celebrate proudly all these birthday years with my mom. as one of those days that will be a very emotional day, you see tomorro is also my mom's birthday. This could be the last day my mom and i ever celebrate our birthday together here on Earth or Lord Willing he will he will send a miracle and cure and my mom & I can celebrate our share a few more birthdays. My sis Shirl's B day is proudly celebrated the day after, sometime's we've hit weekends to celebrate esp. once married but in each of our birthday celebrations, they have always been very special ones.
I guess there has been a lot happening in our family's lives, since i think its been May i've been in and out of hosp. or emerg, i don't remember to be honust much of it at all. Wonderful nurses, like Beth, Marigold, a very warm loving nurse, i again have April a few more times, Jenn and just to many i can't thank or even remember names enough of, simply fabulous
I go into emerg every couple days now to get my "new" purse", selection isn't the greatest fashion, but we take what we get, and then they change the dressings on my bandages. On June 20th while we were about to get ready to take "dad" out for supper, i noticed my lines were all plugged, i could still breath so off we went without clamping, by the time we'd got there there'd been enough pressure released that the only needed to change the purse, these are scarry times, for family, but thankfully we do not have had to make any faster trips in than usual to get us there on time., On the 22st. we had doc apt in emerg with my doc parker, as he walked around the corner he asked me if i needed something, i said yes, they did a blood check right away for blood counts too low, and next lunch nurse called and said after chat with Dr. Harding wpg. doc i would receive two pints of blood, this is an answer to prayer but for me takes a long time to show, well, anyway we went down to tele health where 15 or so min dr. harding shows up for conference. This conference was a complete duplicate of the one we'd had a couple of weeks ago, at least that's what i remember. you go down this long grey hall and then there's a yellow box then you turn the corner, well ok, same as last time, yep, well, there's nothing we can do for you, oh, ok, a doc's job like that must be incredible that the doc who thrives all his life to cure via. chemo. we sit sort of in shock, not really knowing what to think. then we get escourted to room, i was not impressed we got put with the same lady as with tele health, and she's tapping her pencil, then i finally say to will lets go, as we go down narrow tunel back to emerg for blood transfus. i feel myself coming on with a anxiety attack and ask hubby for a bit of meds, wouldn't you know it she's right behind us, not being of any comfort of anthing to us the whole time, to be honust i was not impressed with her actions during the whole time
As we started to go through our transfusions, machines went off in every direction, i had an axiety attack again, so they were going to quit the transfusion, so i talked to the nurse and told her of our situation of mtg. with doc. so she told doc, i'm thankfully he said yep we'll go with it, we'll just put on extra machines to make sure everything still is running smooth, we were so thankfull, although nurse said she'd have never done it, anyway, we finished up our blood transfusion around 10:40 i think. There are a lot of things that go through one's mind, and i know i wasn't drugged up, but the next day we as a family decided i had given my life over to the Lord and from now on,our family would also leave what plans he has for only us is we would follow at all times, and what he wanted for me is what we would do, so that means we will NOT go running on doing research. God is the only one we want in change of. Its amazing how quickly people somehow tend to find out and come over to want to sell, tell their story of what reserach they have done for their family. We choose only God to lead our lives.
This morn we were back at the "purse" salon with same selection of "purses" by the way, this purse drains the fluid from out of my lungs and will be back tues. for another purse change in emerg. I am so over tired by now, so i must close off, my writings will be very slim, i have not done email of facebook much so please excuse me while we as a family find importances slightly changing via computer.
Please continue to Pray we as a family would love to ask for a miracle that he would heal the lung cancer growth which has now gone into the linings of the lungs that's why liquids are formed and must be drained via. a tube. Thanks so much, we feel your love, your prayers, just don't ever give up, God is the most Almighty doc there ever will be. thanks so much from Will, Diane, Brenten, Jodiene & Janae
