Be not anxious

I debated about adding something about the kids can cope weekend, but i think i will anyway, i enjoyed it very much as did Janae, but there was a piece of me that just felt like something or someone's missing, for me i would say, do a wonderful program like the equestrian program with either kids and or adults, but what's missing?? Christ was missing that whole weekend, i believe that a program like that with the hope in Christ is a far better hope to have, i think if kids were shown in the bible true hope and memorized a few verses how God gives us hope, that they could take home with them and remember every time they're going through a rough time, they have God to find hope in and trust in Him, and hope for eternal salvation, and hope in Him, that fills up that empty spot missing out of a program like that, i'm sure not everyone felt that way, as not everyone knows who or what they are missing in their lives. I have talked to so many people who either have gone through a difficult time in their life, a difficult health issue, a life and death situation, and each and every one of them searched. Doesn't matter wether your a christian or never heard of Christ, people and kids are searching, sometimes for what they do not know. For myself i found myself searching into my heart, asking and checking in to see what kind of person am i, am i the person that God will say child your a good and faithfull servant, i am sending you, i need to still work on that part of accepting him sending me and being his servant. I tended to be a person who'd shy back from a lot of things,lets just say everything, well hey!! i am an extremely shy person, but with having cancer, i am slowly coming up out of my shell, and hoping i can help and be an encouragement to others who are struggling. Talking about encouragement, yesterday i had my doc apt. and went to the store for my meds and bumped into Will's aunt & uncle, Aunt Agatha is this year 20 years cancer free, and as we chatted i was encouraged and uplifted by how much from now to 20 years ago when she had cancer we both had similar struggles and how they found encouragement and positiveness and the bubbliness to how they shared, lifted up my spirits once again. Thanks Aunt Agatha & uncle Pete.
These last couple weeks and well for another week, hubby will be busy on the field seeding, so i bring him out lunches and supper, right now he's on the up north fields and so it takes a good half hour (one way)to drive up there and do delivery service, and well since i'm up there i go along for the ride, well, its kinda quiet for him, but after i get there, hm... not so much, we seem to find all sorts to chat about, and sometimes its ok, gonna go home after this round, but as the round gets closer its na just one more, gotta finish a topic so this sometimes goes on for ..... anyway, i'm sure it breaks up his day, for me too, but i find myself, not accomplishing a thing at home, and yep, look where i'm on today lol!! so i may just need to make him a lunch to take along so things can get done here.
ok, so your wondering back and doc and ?? well we talked about the hyperbaric oxygen therapy and he wasn't really sure what to say, as there's not a whole lot of real solid evedence of its workings, but he will still keep it on the burner to do more research if i feel i want to go that route. I also asked him to look into the lazer knife, a lazer surgery done for patients who can't have regular surgeries due to whatever curcumstances so he'll check that out. I'm back on the inhaler as my breathing has slowly been going down hill,( but i will need to get back into a routine with that as i'm absolutely terrible to sticking with meds) so we'll see if that makes a difference, i got a prescription for a lymph node drainage, so i will call the nurse today and see when i can get in, as mine are acting up again, so might as well get at them before they get too out of control. Other than that, more blood work for next month, and this last blood work wasn't back yet, so i guess that'll have to wait. Two more weeks till a CT scan and three more till i find what the doc's think next step will be, at times i get anxious about it, but i keep reminding myself, "Be not anxious for nothing but by prayer and suplication make your requests be known to Him." i know there's many people who continue to pray and we thank you for that, it is what makes a huge difference.
Well anyway think i've chatted off your ears enough for today please remember to pray for the people around you.

Pray for Blaine & Tamara as Blaine goes for lazer radiation on his spine
Pray for Agabus & Mari as she is fighting as hard as she can to fight cancer
Pray for Bev C who found out she's got MS and as she waits for more detailed results on which type, pray for her dad Jim R & Elsie who cut his thumb last week, as he heals
so many others from past blogs, please keep me updated

p.s. pic i took last summer up at my sis' cabin, we were on the boat fishing when we saw this bear on a mission along the banks, hoping to catch a fish, so hubby drove as close as we dared to get a good pic, so glad i had my camera along.